Tears...

I know its not good to cry... But i feel relieved if I cry. I know I am a hot tempered girl.... No one deserve to be yelled at or be mad at. I know I am wrong. I am always wrong. Sometimes I want everything to be calm and no more fighting. I really dont know what to do..... Should I just shut up and keep quiet?

I hurt other people's heart especially my boyfriend. I am so sorry...... now you know that I am not a good girlfriend. I only make people suffer. Sorry me banyak susahkan you selama ani...... I really feel i caused you alot of trouble....

in my heart you are the one yang sanggup buat apa saja untuk me... but me nada buat apa2 utk you... yang me buat is susahkan you all the way.... I know m wrong.. and i am really sorry for that........ its useless to cry.... it refers to me... i am a useless person. sorry again for the people that i hurt. Sorry.

A week in Istana...

Last thursday I was assigned ti work at istana for His Majesty's birthday....it was a hectic day for me... ngalihhhhh berabiss...... tapi worth it lah... i gained more experience jua lah... hehe....

mudahan saja gaji ku tinggi ahh? kekekeke.... oh yeah... the picture downstairs was taken on the 15th.. I was asked to go up to the "Green room" by chef Wira... aku lagi... last year aku jua yang naik... hehe... i met some of the royalties, spoke to them and spoke to some of the VIP's guest... hehe..

My job was to serve the guest the kolo mee.... hehe.. it was fun... ganya ngalih... thanxx for my boo jua...sanggup ngambil aku balik dari istana.. sorry for the trouble boo... oww well... that's all for now... ngalih saya ehh.. hehe... toodles~~ :)

me and the juniors.







i see me.... hehhehehe.















































































































rugget~~ =D




the inner side of the green room.















the lights.... nice~




the bar.



the glass that they use to serve people.

A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~ =D HEHEHEH~

On the 8th July i turned to 21. hehe... it was the happiest day for me. Thanks to my love, khairulanwar and thanx to abg isam...... My boo had given a suprise for me... and it was 5 suprises he gave me... its not fair.. me bagi you 2 suprise ganya... hehe.. nextyear lah me balas ahh? ;p hehe.

The story started like this..... masa afternoon i was checking my boo punya phone... then ada tia ku nampak nama "Frats". Then i asked him apa frats ani? sekali nya kedapatan cha... well masa atu aku macam tau plang di mana... but i wasnt hoping too much.. takut inda di sana? perasan saja ku... hehe...

Then before jalan i was siap2 di bilik... on this one time.. i was searching a hair clip in my bag.. then while i was searching ada ku nampak "PERFUME BVLGARI". I was like... aiksss...? cemana boleh ada ani... hehe.. panya my boo bought it for me... setaiee you ah love..cakap nada duit lah~~ ;p tau jua urang... hehe...

Then ofcourse lah aku pakai that perfume masa kami bejalan.. I AM SO LIKING IT..... thanxx boo... hehe... then masa kami jalan i was still wondering kami ke mana... pandai ya my boo ahh... ia lintas sheraton hotel so that aku pkir kami makan sana... keke.. round2... it turns out kami makan at "FRATINI'S".

when we arrived... i thought kami makan d bawah... rupanya2 it was upstairs.... I didnt expect that the candle light dinner atu macam in the movies... you know... ada flowers...candles...and etc. hehe.... when i stood in front of the table i was like..... =O wow... hehe.. i was speechless... i cannot stop smiling.... i didnt know that my guy is really a romantic guy.. ;p infact... HE'S REALLY ROMANTIC.... =D

Then we ordered the food.... while waiting I asked him when would he sing for me... I wanted him to sing for me masa my bday atu.... Then suddenly he came close to me and sing apanah? ;p at first he sang 'terima kasih cinta' by afghan. Then my boo sang a song by Joe, i think no one else came close? hehe.... he was soooo suweettttttt.... he made me cry when i hear him singing. Not crying because of sad... The tears is because i'm happy. :)

After that kami call abg isam cakap that kami d fratinis..... bunyinya menyamal abg isam ani...inda dapat join pasal ia kerja... rupa2nya..... my boo planned everything... while we were eating.. ada cha urg nyanyi a happy birthday song... rupanya abg isam... sambil membawa cake yang my boo balikkan lagi tu ehh... bakerlyn kali ahh..... hehehe..... i was shocked lagi... i didnt expect ada cake lagi...pasal what my boo done for me is banyak udah... I was very iski on that day..... hehe.... a big thanxx to abg isam for sudi menolong my boo and for coming on my bday atu....

For my khairulanwar... that was the best birthday present that i have ever received from someone. I really mean what i said. I love you more and more... Thanx for making me happy... I really am.....I would not forget what happened on 8th July 2008. THANK YOU BOO...... I LOVE YOU AND SAYANG YOU LOTSSSS AND LOTSSSSS... =D MMMMWAAAHHHH~

the candle light dinner~~ :)



the cake that my boo bought~ :D



loving my boo all the way~~ hehe.




:) feeling really happy on the 8th~ :D



thank god i found you... ;)



. khairulanwar and hamizah . ;)



thanxxx abg isammmm... hehehehehe. ;p

a birthday cake for the borthday boy~ ;p

the bola cake. hehe.



belabih usul you ahh love... hehe... love you. :)