In pain.

There are many thigs happened to me this past few years. For a second i'm having the joyness of life then suddenly i'm in pain... All i can do is keep it to myself. I feel that i hurt the people that knows me.

The feeling to have a friend that is there for you when you need them is a happy feeling. As time goes by, people keep on changing and they tend to change partners. I dont know what i did but seems like people dont like me. I choose to keep quite now. So that i wont hurt anybody.

Finally now i found a guy that i love so much and a guy that love me with all his heart. Somehow, there's something that still bugging my relationship with him. All i want now is to be happy with my guy. I had so many pains back then. I just want to start a new life with my guy. Why cant people understand?? I really dont mean to hurt you love.. It kills me if you think i love someone else than you. You really mean everything to me. How can i possibly do that.

I'm the one who is afraid that you might......... hopefully not. I am so lucky that i found you and that you are my bf now.. i just hope it would stick that way forever. all i want now is to be happy with you.. only you khairulanwar. I am so sorry. =(

A sad love story.

I quote this from my friend, Daus. the reason why i put this one is because it really touched my heart. How love can make you sacrifice everything.



There was a blind man who hated himself just because he was blind. He was extremely critical of everyone, except for his loving girlfriend. She was always there for him. He said that if only he could see the world, he would marry her.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to him and then he could see everything, including his girlfriend. Her girlfriend asked him, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”

The man was shocked when he saw that his girlfriend was blind too, and refused to marry her.

His girlfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to him saying,

“JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES PLEASE.”

This is how humans change when their status changes. Only few remember what life was before, and who has always been there in the most painful situations

attending function at rizqun...

well.... today sebenarnya aku atu inda kan jadi ikut ke jemputan because i got something to do... but since my dad inda jadi ikut, my mum bring me along. tampat urg kawin ani orang yang aku baru tau cuzinn... hehe... tampat my aunty masni... anaknya kawin... masa d sana i saw labui and kadhi..

A funny incident happened... mama c labui sikit lagi tesasul pasal........ hehehe.... mun inda bh.. kedapatan... hehe. nasib tarus ku bagi signal.. mun nda? kedapatan ehh... phewww~~~ hehe. sabar~~ adatah masanya tu... keke. well atu tah picture ku tu... like always. vaining in the car. kekeke.. =)

me with tudong. =)



muka ku makin round ahhhh.....



besarnya gigi~ kekeke...


esehhh..rambut dang~~~ hehe..


my hair's grown longer now. =)

last friday... watching gunners d stadium...

hehe.. on wednesday i told my khairulanwar ani.. 'love..... 2 hari tani inda jumpa ne ahh...' inda sadar2 bejumpa jua hari jumat... keke... i cant be far away from you love boo.. you know why? its because i love you so much.. its hard for me to be far away from you... keke.. bohh.. m deep. haha! who cares.... hehe.. i'm deep arah my khairulanwar saja... =D last friday i watched gunners main d stadium.. it was fun... i had a great time on that day..cos i got to see my bf... i really miss him.

smiling without bracess... hehe.


two couples who love each other so much.


hehe.


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apa ehh... inda kan serious~ =p

monday blues~~

last monday... i had my Management presentation.. iatah ku lawa2... keke.. my the 2nd one to go... nervous to the maxx lah ku... hehe... the presentation went well jua lah.. I managed to get a MERIT... oh well.. inda apalah.. hehe... syukur alhamdulillah... after that i went out lunch with my tojeng and the other superfriends arah KJ restaurant... those are my picture... =)

=)


hehe.


miss khairulanwar. =)

last sunday update..

on sunday i went to mu cousin's place.. ada baca doa selamat... hehe... when i came there i met all my cousins and my cute nephews..... they so adorable.. hehe..there were nothing much to talk about on that day.. there are pictures that i took during that day...

me and my cuzzie, bibie.


my cutie nephew, alai rusydi..


my other nephew, alai haris..

Saturday, 19th April.

what a day.... hehe... i woke up early in the morning pasal kan membuat lasagna yang ka baby order for function malam atu.... then after that ke sekolah... again.. today ada food sale.. it was my menu... Alhamdulillah jualan my menu ani ada jua orang tepakai.. keke... thanx for the help peeps.
Anyways i asked my bro to send the lasagna ke resto.. so masa afternoon its easier for me to pick it up... sekali nya... comunication breakdown lah... my bro lupa gtau my workers that the lasagna is not for catering...

So my lasagna kana angkut lah arah rumah my ucu.... kana makan lah 1 set.. my ucu pikir my mommy bagi.. paning2.... sigh~ i dont blame my ucu.. my bro wah.. i make it up to you lah ka baby ah... i make another one for you...and then.. masa malam...ke rumah azeez.... it was his birthday... happy belated birthday... hope you succeed in eveything you do... and thanx for the food. And here are the picture of azeez and bonita..also...baby huda pun ada.. hehe...

. azeez with bonita and the birthday cake .


baby huda~~ hehe...

Last thursday.....

in the morning i was doing food sales at my college... it was a hectic day.... ngalih banar wah... then my khairulanwar picks me up at 4pm.. then my love boo picks me up from school... sampat lagi ku mandi bah.. hehe... then bawa angah kajap bali food d pasar.. on that day.. i was planning to wash my hair arah salon and bali baju... sekalinya..... i was checking my money arah bank.... the bank took all my money... so i am officially broke again... sigh~ baru jua kan beduit bah....

Then night time...me and my love boo antar angah sama ayang dulu ke sengkurong... then baru tah kami ke empire... main golf.... hehe.. aku inda main... meliat saja~~ hehe.... i did take one shot of my love boo main golf.... hensom you atu love ah~~ hehe... =p

esehhhh... you are my tojeng~ =D

busy busy busy....

almost two weeks i have not update my blog... hehe.. so busy lately.... assignment lah.. food sales lah... membari stress.... hehe.. maybe i need a long holiday... haha... besides, something is stressing me right now... not because of you love... i think you know what i mean.. hehe... let me start talking of what happened on thursday.... =)

tuesday on the 8th.

Once again... i came late to school... hehe.. pasal menyiapkn my assignment... iatah tu nah last minit... kekeke... baik jua siap... my abg sends me to my love boo's house pasal its almost lunch time masa ku kan ke sekolah atu.. and the others inda balik ke sekolah after they're having their break durang kerumah c ang....

So masa at my love's house... my love main game lah dulu.. hehe... after that kami ngambil c miyul... then kan me-photocopy... hehe.. zah.. bukannya kami lambat ngambil ko.. ganya... yang tukang me-photocopy atu bah... kambang2an.. keke.... then after that kami ambil ezahh..

Last2 kami lunch at ayamku.. nada usin iatah makan sana saja... keke.. then abg isam came along lapas atu... after we had our lunch aku ke sekolah balik... 1 hour saja bah class ku ahh.. balik cha lapas atu... hehe... kerita abg isam mula2 inda mau d start...so kami tinggalkn d batu besurat... then we went to the hospital.. dangani ezah... kami inda jadi minum.. hehe.. kan zah? sanggup kami nunggu ko atu.. =p gagagaga....

after the hospital kami ke pasar..bali pisang and bali some food lah.. hehe.. then ke batu besurat kajap... check on abg isam's car.... abg isam's daddy panggil urg usai the car.. last2 mau cha... then we all headed to abg isam's house... kami lepas sana batah jua lah.. hehe.. thanx for the food abg isam.. it was really nice... =) till then... toodles~

abg si sam, ezahh and miyul..



baby huda with her lolly. hehe.


somehow i like this picture. =)


=)


Cali bah this gambar. keke. =)

finally i can see a smile in your face. =)

Alhamdulillah everything went smooth today... Lunch time i went out with my love boo... and in the car ada c faizul gadget sama another guy sekawan dgn my love boo and c faizul... then in the car i asked faizul where he lives and ia ada kenal2 urg sg.buluh... then he said that cuzin nya banyak d sg.buluh....it turns out ia atu cuzin ku...and the guy in the car atu pun cuzin ku... its kinda weird... satu kerita semua cuzin yang baru kenal.. keke. oh yeah.. abg isam... i know ur gonna say that m gonna mentioned everything dalam blog ku ne... keke... tapi.. baca saja ahhh.. =p

moving along.... after school my love boo picks me up at school.... after that kami ke jing chew.... banyak urg d sana.... hehe.. ada gossip bah kan kana gtau aku... keke.. nasib~ my love andang membangitau awal2 udah what happened last night.. hehe..so aku sabar saja~because i trust my love boo....plus i know they were fooling around jua.. hehe... saja... kan buat sensasi.. apakan~ hehe... tadi atu cali lah...

kesian my love boo..... love.... i just wanna say sorry me buat you paning this past few days... ingau hati me meliat you macam ada problem atu... i'm glad to see you smile again tadi atu... i feel relieved.... hope good things would happened to us in days to come. And i want to apologize to the people if aku ada sakiti kah... I am really sorry to everyone. =) Also to the one who reads my blog... Thank you and hope you enjoy reading it. toodles~ =)

Three ADORABLE picS of my boo... =)

those are the pictures that i like... usulnya belabih ahh.. hehe... the one yang masa tidur atu is when he was having his attahchment... when he was chatting with me. =) masih fling2 masa atu tu... kekekkee....

moving to the middle one is masa ia di aussie..hehe... it reminds me of the koala yang he gave me... tambah lagi senyum cematu... kekeke.... and the top one is the one yang c faizul send aku.... that was last year kan love? usul you ah..... hehe... kalah kacak model laki2 atu bah... kacak lagi you.... =p hehehhe... i really miss you. =)

faizul send me this pic pasal aku suruh.. haha.. kacak you sini ahh love.. =p


usul you belabih ahh.. hehe... that smile..... only you who can have that smile love. =)


you look adorable when you are sleeping. =)

yesterday and today.

yesterday i didnt do anything much.. patang nada class.. after lunch me and my tojeng liat movie di empire... we watched "P.S, I LOVE YOU" its a sad movie.. and surprisingly...the actor panggil wife nya 'love'~~ hehe.. macam me and my tojeng call each other tu... "LOVE~" kekekke.... after that kami lepak at my tojeng's house and then went home..


today.... pagi2 aku membasuh all the dirty piring and cawan.. after that my daddy asked me to cook the lambchop... it went good.. kana puji nyaman.. hehe.. after that i meet my love boo... cos ia kan main bola d polo.. handal wah my tojeng main ahhhh.. KACOI~~~ keekkeke.... we won... 4 - 2. the match was sioook... and after that kami bali tungking kajap... then masa balik... time ku update blog ku ne.. ada cha kakak zumie ane... membawa aku vaining... hehe.. aku apa lagi? gagaga.. ok then.. that's all for now. i'm tired... k m out. =D

=D


. me and kakak zumiee .


. after . hehe.


. si anak bandel ku .


. before .

last wed... 2nd april =D

hehehe...i opened my bracess masa last wed... =D i came early in the morning buka my braces.. sakit lah masa ia buka the basi..after that aku balik ke sekolah.... masa lunch time me, abg isam and my bf's family makan d millenium.. the chicken was nice... and the burger was BIG...

after lunch i have to go to the hospital lagi..pasang retainer... i dont really like the result of my teeth ah.. basar... mudahan tah aku makai retainer ani gigi ku makin lawa.. kekeke... lapas dari hospital me and my love boo ke gdg.. aku kan mau bali ice cream at jolibee. Then iqbal, abg isam, my tojeng and me ke mall. i bought a cooler pad. =D kacawww ehh.. nada cha ada yang pink colour atu...

Lapas atu we went to oslam...... lapas dari oslam me and my tojeng ke rumah abg isam... kan makan cucur pisang... hehe.. thanxxx abg isam.. =D we stayed there for quite a time.. after that kami chow min chow~~ =D

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=D


you with ur look.. hehe.. =p



. abg isam and my love boo =D .


. me and my tojeng =D .


. iqbal and abg isam .


. abg isam ane me .

tuesday... 1st apriL...

today i came to school akhir..... i think after break kali... hehe... i was finishing up my assignment...nasib siap.. hehe.. then i ask my abg to send me to school... kami d library.. hehe.. the others were studying while me? aku cerita2 saja sama my friends and i was kinda sleepy. lunch time my love boo picks me up...then kami lunch d ideal with abg isam, faizz, iqbal, haifz and their lil sista...

after lunch my love boo sends me to school...as usual lah belajar.. and went home. those are the pics that i've took... =)

si meezah. (:


. me and lim .


. ang, jul and neesa .


nurol with her lappy...


. midah and aisyah belajar poa

. me .


two people loving each other. =)


hehehe.


they were trying to imitate my pose. haha. =p


my tojeng, faizzz and me. =)


no need for me to date you..cos you are all mine.. =p


what were i doing? haha.


si lating..